Just a few more days
One week from today, I will know. One week from today, I will either be celebrating and planning our Alaska vacation, or I will be curled up in bed. I am preparing myself for both outcomes. Always optimistic, but trying to not be surprised if the worst happens. I am beginning, in my head, to write blog entries for the two outcomes, kind of like a presidential speechwriter prepares for winning and losing.
I've had a bunch of good days in a row, but today I started to feel really anxious, and it is tying my stomach up in knots. But then, I wonder, is it anxiety, or is it cancer? And thus starts the vicious cycle.
I'm not sure what else to write. I know I just have to make it through the week, finding diversions and keeping busy. It's just a few more days.
I've had a bunch of good days in a row, but today I started to feel really anxious, and it is tying my stomach up in knots. But then, I wonder, is it anxiety, or is it cancer? And thus starts the vicious cycle.
I'm not sure what else to write. I know I just have to make it through the week, finding diversions and keeping busy. It's just a few more days.
posted by Rachel Troxell at 5:18 PM
2 Comments:
Rachel,
You are and have been such an inspiration to us all. Now it is up to us to pray, medidate, whatever it is that we do to communicate to G-D. It is up to us to send our messages and make sure there is only one outcome. That Alaska vacation sounds spectacular! Oh, and that pit in your stomach? I think you can safely bet that every one of us is waiting right along with you. Thinking about you always....
Barb
You have been just amazing as you proceed on this journey. It's no wonder you are anxious. The fact that you've had so many good days is a hopeful sign.
I once read a short piece called The Station. Everyone is going to the same station, but everyone's trip is different. It's the trip that's important, not the end destination. I hope you can find some things to enjoy each day of the week and not just wait for them to pass. One of the things I've learned from you is that every day is precious and to do something special with it.
One day at a time. And I hope to read your posting from Alaska one day soon.
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