Back on track
I went in this morning for chemo - mornings seem to be much faster now in terms of waiting - and was given the go-ahead. Glick still can't feel my liver, so that's good. White blood cells were back up to 4.6, and hemoglobin and platelets were high enough for treatment. Hemoglobin was not high enough for Procrit - there is now some health insurance policy that limits the coverage of Procrit to levels below 10; I was at 10.1. So no Procrit for me. I'm sure I'll be low next week, so I'll get it then. Seems kind of silly. Ah, health insurance. But really, I don't have it too bad. Most everything is covered, and so far, I've never had to fight for anything.
I got home around noon, and I've felt pretty good all day. They gave me decadron through the IV, so that probably helps with feeling good.
Since I was having trouble sleeping, they prescribed Ambien last week, and I've been taking it every night. Up until last night, I would wake up around 3 or 4 am when it wore off. But last night was the fight time in a while that I slept through the night to the alarm clock. Ambien gives you weird dreams. Before I go to sleep, I try to make my subconscious have cancer-conquering dreams. I conjure up images of me living a cancer-free life. I don't know if it's worked, but at least I haven't had nightmares. I wake up pretty well-rested.
Jason and I went to Virginia over the weekend, and it was wonderful! Our first-year anniversary is coming up (October 28), and we will probably go up to the Berkshires to celebrate. It's fantastic to be able to travel and feel good. Just a little tired, that's all.
Have people been reading the Lifetime blog? I feel like no one reads it. I don't really blame you - it's honestly not my best work. I feel like I have to use a different voice for them, one that is more "survivor-y" if you know what I mean. I don't feel that I can be as sarcastic or ironic. I prefer to write my own personal blog, here. It's just more comfortable, more ME.
I got home around noon, and I've felt pretty good all day. They gave me decadron through the IV, so that probably helps with feeling good.
Since I was having trouble sleeping, they prescribed Ambien last week, and I've been taking it every night. Up until last night, I would wake up around 3 or 4 am when it wore off. But last night was the fight time in a while that I slept through the night to the alarm clock. Ambien gives you weird dreams. Before I go to sleep, I try to make my subconscious have cancer-conquering dreams. I conjure up images of me living a cancer-free life. I don't know if it's worked, but at least I haven't had nightmares. I wake up pretty well-rested.
Jason and I went to Virginia over the weekend, and it was wonderful! Our first-year anniversary is coming up (October 28), and we will probably go up to the Berkshires to celebrate. It's fantastic to be able to travel and feel good. Just a little tired, that's all.
Have people been reading the Lifetime blog? I feel like no one reads it. I don't really blame you - it's honestly not my best work. I feel like I have to use a different voice for them, one that is more "survivor-y" if you know what I mean. I don't feel that I can be as sarcastic or ironic. I prefer to write my own personal blog, here. It's just more comfortable, more ME.
posted by Rachel Troxell at 5:28 PM
7 Comments:
We always read your Lifetime entries. They're well-written and interesting, although this blog is more personal, which is appropriate since it's written mostly for folks who know you.Both are worth reading.
Anne W.
yes i agree with anne w
I like it. It's hard to find though if you don't have the exact link.
Jamie
I think you are doing a fine job with both blogs.
I went on Lifetime and clicked on blog but none of the blogs indicate who wrote them - how do I know which one is yours??
Glad you're doing so well,
Connie
I read your blogs often, Rachel. I think you are a great writer, and you are chronicling this time in your life in an open and engaging way. I imagine it must be difficult to share all the ups and downs with friends and strangers, but it is a gift to your readers. Thank you.
Daniela
I read the Lifetime blog, but there is a difference. The Lifetime blog is like reading a magazine. This blog is like reading a letter from a friend. I think it's so odd that I feel we're friends, and I've never met you. I guess it's not so strange because the way you become someone's friend is to reveal who you really are and that's what you do here. I wonder how it is from your side. You give so much. All we can do is keep you in our thoughts and prayers and let you know we are thinking of you. Maybe it's enough. Just look how well you're doing! Keep it up and enjoy your life moment to moment.
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