The little red pimple
I saw Dr. Glick today. After absolutely GUSHING over the new LympheDIVAs look book and telling me what a brilliant idea it is, we got down to business. Primarily, we talked about the little red pimple-like thing on my upper right chest that seems to be the source of the pain I was experiencing over the weekend. It popped up after the port was put in. What could it be? We don't know; but Glick said he knows he wants it out. Whether it's cancer or an infection or just a little pimple, it should be gone.
So, my breast surgeon's nurse came in for a consult, and thank goodness, I'm having it out tomorrow. There was a question of whether I would need to stop the Avastin treatment before this procedure. But since I'm having it done tomorrow, it's no problem. No break in treatment.
I'm having trouble deciding on what to worry about. Do I want this to be a pimple? Or do I want it to be cancer? If it is cancer, then we suddenly have a new sample of the metastasized tumor, which we can then test for all sorts of markers. This is a theory that my dad and I have been working on, that there is a slight possibility that the status of the tumor may have changed. It would be good to know if had. So, if the little red pimple is cancer, then we'd have the answer. On the other hand, if it's benign, then I guess that's good. No cancer is always a good thing, right? It's just that I want to know what these tumors are that are all over my body! I guess this is another situation where I just don't have control. It is what it is. I'll deal with the information as it comes, and keep moving forward.
Dr. Glick did feel the edge of my liver today, and my dad confirmed it. I guess it never really went away. But the thing is, I felt really good today. I still think the drugs are working. Edge or no edge, pimple or no pimple, the drugs have to be working.
So, my breast surgeon's nurse came in for a consult, and thank goodness, I'm having it out tomorrow. There was a question of whether I would need to stop the Avastin treatment before this procedure. But since I'm having it done tomorrow, it's no problem. No break in treatment.
I'm having trouble deciding on what to worry about. Do I want this to be a pimple? Or do I want it to be cancer? If it is cancer, then we suddenly have a new sample of the metastasized tumor, which we can then test for all sorts of markers. This is a theory that my dad and I have been working on, that there is a slight possibility that the status of the tumor may have changed. It would be good to know if had. So, if the little red pimple is cancer, then we'd have the answer. On the other hand, if it's benign, then I guess that's good. No cancer is always a good thing, right? It's just that I want to know what these tumors are that are all over my body! I guess this is another situation where I just don't have control. It is what it is. I'll deal with the information as it comes, and keep moving forward.
Dr. Glick did feel the edge of my liver today, and my dad confirmed it. I guess it never really went away. But the thing is, I felt really good today. I still think the drugs are working. Edge or no edge, pimple or no pimple, the drugs have to be working.
posted by Rachel Troxell at 8:25 PM
3 Comments:
I check your blog often and am sharing this emotional jouney with you. I rejoice over the positives and I find myself mustering my determination to help you deal with the temporary setbacks. I'm learning from you to see the past the setbacks to the day when you will be able to focus your enormous energy on family, friends, and frivolity, not the army of gremlins. I hope your surgery went well and that the pain disappears. As you wrote, keep moving forward.
Dear amazing Rachel.... here in Florida, I share this journey with you, and constantly lift you up in my prayers. The Lord is answering the prayers of untold numbers of people around this globe, offered on your behalf. Your God-given vibrant spirit is leading you to the healing of your body. Trust in Him. He is using this "little red pimple" as a means to give wisdom to the doctors, so that they will provide the best meds for you - exactly what YOU need.
Remember that you are loved by so many of us who have never met you, and most of all by the One who gave you life! He is giving you hope and peace, and I can see it!
Rachel...Thank you for sharing this chapter of your story with the rest of us sojourners. I am amazed and blessed by your courage, compassion and countenance. We will continue to pray urgently for your complete healing...Here is a writing from the book of Isaiah that I think fits who you are. It is my prayer for you today:
"Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:
to loose the chains of injustice
and untie the cords of the yoke,
to set the oppressed free
and break every yoke?
7 Is it not to share your food with the hungry
and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter— when you see the naked, to clothe him,
and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
8 Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness [a] will go before you,
and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.
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